Tick Tock

I can sit here and stare at the clock with it's one red hand making circles over the black numbers. Then I watch the large black hand moving at a slow steady pace, and the smaller black hand in place waiting for it's turn to move. Tick Tock. Tick Tock.

For the one and only

Ash Wednesday is coming soon, and I am getting a headache only because I am thinking of what I could give up. It's supposed to be about sacrificing, therefore, I don't want to give up something that's worthless. So, I'm left bewildered. I can't think of a single item that I have an attachment to. I honestly can say I've given up so much since mid-December, I can't think of anything else. I am thinking about giving up Facebook, but I've been able to give up that before without hesitation. I can give up.... Him. The thoughts of him, the fear of him, and the pressure he left me with, the only exception would be when I legally have to talk of him. Along with this, I will give up her, my grieving of her, and guilt I have for her. Then, when I think of them, I will pray for strength for us all. I have found it, a true sacrifice, for the one that gave it all. <3

Restlessness

It's three a.m. and I lay here with a brightly colored yellow and red blanket. Above me I can hears the sounds of popular songs being played. I am staying with a friend; she is asleep but as for me, I am wide awake. You would think I would crash from my eventful day, but that is not so. I have one of those eye masks that is supposed to help me sleep, but I instinctively peek out every so often. The sound of Ke$ha makes me want to vomit, ick. Speaking of music! I should share my favorite artists! They include, Lady Gaga, Ingrid Michaelson, Regina Spektor, Imogen Heap, Coldplay, Jj Heller, Addison Road, Tenth Avenue North, and many others. Hmm.. On the topics of favorites! My favorite color is purple. My favorite thing to wear is skinny jeans or jegging. My favorite perfume is either aeropostale or fantasy. I love any type of fruity drink. I love heels! I love Jjjjeeesssuuussss. <><
Ahh finally! Sleepy eyes!
Later gator.

Another room...

The next white classroom... New location, new teacher, same me. Maybe that's my problem... The same me. Eh horrifying bell sound.. Off to the next white classroom.

Life as I know it

Well, here I sit once again, in this white classroom filled with "positive" posters that make me want to puke. I should probably be doing homework, or taking a test but I feel in a blur. Here's my life in a nutshell: 1. Most talked about girl in school (negative) 2. Friends are starting to turn against me (more negative) 3. let's add depression on the list, but most people would say this is only for attention, so scratch that. Blogging will be my new friend, because really, I can't trust anyone else but myself. Bells about to ring... putting up the laptop. I'll talk soon friend.